Few Lines from The Play "Reality"

I am not mad, I am not angry, I am not sad.
I am not dead either.
I do feel the pain until numbness takes over … but not fully,
It is a trance like state where the blurry reality is only a glimpse.
You were my perfect angel…
Little did I know that you will deceive me like this.
I am shocked! Shattered!
Not about the incident but the lies.
These lies just crushed the impression of a perfect Angel,
I preserved in my mind for so long.
The Angel fell and so my dreams were slaughtered.
I suffocated them with my own hands.
Lies!
How could you lie to me like this my dear?
Did you ever even bother to realize how very much you meant to me?
And you still do mean A LOT to me without any doubt.
But these lies, just weakened the strong pillars of trust-I had for you.
You wrote a song- full of words unknown to you
You played that song, saying that it is dedicated to me only
When you, yourself, did not know what it means.
What an illusive journey I was going through
It was a broken mirror where delusions were portrayed as truth
I really wonder, how many masks a person can possibly wear?
All these time you have been publishing fables which did not mean anything to you
This is the part of the story tormenting me so much
I seriously do not care what you did or what your future plans are
You could just show the REAL YOU to me...
I would have still be the same and so my feelings for you...
What a fool I am!
Could not comprehend your acting skills before…

Here are my deepest apologies regarding the fact-
I just buried the special feelings I had for you
Maybe a bit of respect too
However you ARE still a very special friend to me
No matter what, I will be always there for you
It is not just a saying, It is a promise.

Just erase all the past lyrics from your head
Cause this is a new beginning…
A new me …
An unknown you…
A new chapter of the novel is about to be written...