Revelation : Through a Broken Glass Jar

Mesmerized in a fool’s paradise
Hiding from the eyes of despise
All the dreams that once committed suicide
Their haunting spirits are now emerging to collide.
The spells that awakened me, are turning into a curse
And your recurring demons are still ruling my universe
Words are moaning to let loose but my mind is just like a blank page
And these thoughts are screaming to liberate from the locked cage.
Release my soul, Set me free, and Let me go
I am way too exhausted to be a part of this inert show
I know you worked hard to choose the characters of your delicate play
But if you open your eyes and look around, you'll find who's now isolated all the way!

Heart Shaped Box

I sealed you in my heart shaped box
Transparent
Crystal clear
Like my anaemic reflection
In the mirror

As I was filling up bottles of passion,
Never realized how you vanished
Through the key-hole!
And left my heart shaped box
Empty
Deserted…

Static Emotions

If I do disappear since I lost my way,

Don't worry I will write you a note and draw you a sketch

Can we go back in time and undo the errors?

Because I am not ready to write the ending yet

Right now, I am a bundle of headache,

tangled with remorse, and withering in your absence,

like a wounded bird...

What I discovered is, the world is empty without you!

and I really AM lifeless without your touch

Didn't you notice my love, there is no sign of life,

in my doll like beauty.I wasn't blinking!!!

Insomnia

On nights like this,
As sleep escapes my world
by lightly brushing my eyelashes,
The dimly lit lamp standing on my table,
looks like a drowsy exhausted sun,
in the bitter shadows of the cold room.
The light beam doesn’t reach my forcefully closed eyelids,
As I surrender myself,
to the dead silence of the ghostly night.

As darkness pulls the curtain down,
I try to loose myself in this solitude
But your unseen presence haunts me,
in this subtle tranquility,
as you vaguely appear out of the thick darkness
Silently touching me with your fingertips…
Gently kissing my lips...
Once again, my temptations break all the barriers
My blood cells start running frantically through the blue veins,
Like deafening drumbeats, my heart vibrates
Every single inch of me tries to feel you with all my senses

While my hands hysterically search for you,
it only hits back the disappointing thin air
I discover myself alone with a throbbing vacant heart
in this empty room at 4 am in the morning

Fading Canvas...

When the evening casts upon the earth, most of the people do not perceive, what a bizarre painting is drawn behind the mesh of trees, through the tangled leaves, on the naked sky. When the radiant beam of light, wheels down the sky slowly, all of a sudden three-four pieces of ghostly clouds float around in this oblivion. And from the blackish shadows of the pallid trees, like an anaemic phantom, appears thick fog like, smoky, vaporous little particles. While an invisible painter, brushes stroke of black, red, and white color on the west sky. The distant landscape hastily rolls up its vibrant carpet from the background. The shadows grow tall to taller, and a black spider keeps on weaving webs of darkness.




This is how little beauties fade away from our life, like an unnoticeable masterpiece. As darkness devours the glorious horizon, everyday I find it miraculous to find myself alive and breathing in this medieval painting...

A Saucer full of Gibberish Thoughts with a Lunatic Flavor ...^&*+!?

Three most important pillars of the story...

1. Moonlight

2.Mind Machine

3.Fractured Leg

First of all, it is really difficult to sleep with an aircast on your leg. Secondly, I am missing moonlight super badly. I am just feeling like holding moonlight ( which means literally holding the silvery ray )in my hands and forget about the world. It may sound absurd, but I do have severe lunar effects on me. At least if I could just have a glimpse of moonlight, it would have magically bring back all the colors in my world instantly. Since none of them are possible right now, I decided to brushfire my gibberish thoughts through words. I was writing on my journal, but after a while I got really tired of writing with the pen, and my hand writing, which is always straight like a rail track changed into zigzag rows of curvy mountains. Therefore, I decided to use the technology!

Story#1:-

My mind is actually a thought producing factory. It is divided into various sectors; different divisions are processing different type of thoughts. On the way to the factory, at first you have to cross a labyrinth. It is a combination of thousands of alleyways, where my thoughts are running, rushing, sometimes bumping into each other and blending everything up. On the gateway to the factory, where the labyrinth ends, "Thought catchers" are waiting at the entrance. They catch the thought(s) which manages to reach the end of the maze and deposit them to the factory ... into the machines.

Story#2:-

Ok something else have popped in my mind. Unfortunately, I am a really restless person. I can not focus on to one thing for a long time. Only one thing is constant in my factory and it is the thinking machine that is endlessly producing thoughts regarding moonlight ( I have already mentioned the moon hypnotized me!) Other than that everything else is just a bundle of nerves. Again, I am tilting from the topic, one thing that popped in my mind was - How is a fractured leg connected with the mind machine? I am upset because I have a fractured leg. Instead of writing about that, why on earth, am I describing the mind factory?!, which is anyways located in a top secret planet --- My H e a d!

...Back to Story#1 + conclusion :-

The main problem of the factory is --- Diversity. There are too many machines here, which keeps on producing infinite thoughts at a time; and eventually ends up throwing me into a vigorously whirling cyclone of confusion. Therefore, that is the reason why I am so confused and restless all the time. So jumping from moonlight to mind machine to fractured leg, is NOT really that absurd thats why.

P.S: I am REALLY...

Upset---> Fractured Leg

Bored---> Walking is forbidden for me at the moment

Angry---> Neverending Lectures!!!

Sad------> I am Truly missing Moonlight :'(

The restlessness and confusion do not apply to Moonlight though...

Moonlight is absolute and constant!

Few Lines from The Play "Reality"

I am not mad, I am not angry, I am not sad.
I am not dead either.
I do feel the pain until numbness takes over … but not fully,
It is a trance like state where the blurry reality is only a glimpse.
You were my perfect angel…
Little did I know that you will deceive me like this.
I am shocked! Shattered!
Not about the incident but the lies.
These lies just crushed the impression of a perfect Angel,
I preserved in my mind for so long.
The Angel fell and so my dreams were slaughtered.
I suffocated them with my own hands.
Lies!
How could you lie to me like this my dear?
Did you ever even bother to realize how very much you meant to me?
And you still do mean A LOT to me without any doubt.
But these lies, just weakened the strong pillars of trust-I had for you.
You wrote a song- full of words unknown to you
You played that song, saying that it is dedicated to me only
When you, yourself, did not know what it means.
What an illusive journey I was going through
It was a broken mirror where delusions were portrayed as truth
I really wonder, how many masks a person can possibly wear?
All these time you have been publishing fables which did not mean anything to you
This is the part of the story tormenting me so much
I seriously do not care what you did or what your future plans are
You could just show the REAL YOU to me...
I would have still be the same and so my feelings for you...
What a fool I am!
Could not comprehend your acting skills before…

Here are my deepest apologies regarding the fact-
I just buried the special feelings I had for you
Maybe a bit of respect too
However you ARE still a very special friend to me
No matter what, I will be always there for you
It is not just a saying, It is a promise.

Just erase all the past lyrics from your head
Cause this is a new beginning…
A new me …
An unknown you…
A new chapter of the novel is about to be written...