Friday, November 28, 2008

Bittersweet Curse


When all the pieces of puzzle fits perfectly together for the people closest to my heart, and leaving me the only clueless one, really makes me wonder if I am the marked black sheep among them? Or perhaps just cursed? Therefore, I search for the crypt to fade away; but the faint trail of the curse keeps on haunting me everywhere like a shadow. Wherever I am, it is always there; giving me a wicked look with a crooked smile with eyes full of pity saying,

“You can not run away from me, no matter what road you take, what path you follow, I AM ALWAYS THERE.”

Yet I keep on running; searching for a map and a compass to reach the end. Every time I reach it, disappointment hits me with a crippling frustration; because consistently I discover it as not the end, but only the beginning. I scream out loud, asking myself,

“Why couldn’t the curse be my knight in shining armor? Why do I keep on running after this illusion, mistaking it as a salvation?”

My unanswered questions remain vague and concealed. The curse flowing through my veins slowly poison me. What an addiction this is or shall I say a deadly hunger? I am cursed… cursed by life; and you are the cause and cure; hope and vanity; truth and lie;dream and reality...

The ugly face of life reveals, at certain points reality may taste like nightmares...while you are trying to escape your only destination....


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